Foreword
You and Yoseob met when you were 5 years old. It happened in a store’s toy section. You were running to your mom with a big rabbit plush in your hands and didn’t notice a little cute boy with a bear twice as big as him in his hands. You both crashed and fell to the ground. Confused looks crossed your faces and you both started laughing. Your mothers came to look what the racket was about and because of you two became good friends. You spent a lot of time together from then on, as both your mom’s got together to talk about the neighbourhood that lasted mostly from four till five hours.
You always had a weak point for plush rabbits and Yoseob however liked teddy bears, but your mothers always bought the opposite toys so when you got together you shared with them. After the meeting that mom’s had almost every second day you could be found sitting next to each other asleep hugging your toys.
When growing up you developed feelings for Yoseob, but as there were always people around, like the band or some other close friends, you didn’t have a chance to confess or get to know Yoseob’s feeling.
When Yoseob entered the Cube and became the band member you got to stay in the same dorm as them. You worked in Cube as well because you wanted to enter the entertainment world to stay closer to Yoseob. As a trainee you had to take a lot of classes like dancing, singing and acting, and to make it even better you took additional art lessons and modelling lessons, that made your schedule as busy as B2ST’s. The Boss new you and B2ST were close friends and as you being so close to Yoseob cause a lot of trouble between other girls in the Cube you couldn’t be left in dorms with them. You were showing such a potential on becoming a good actress they couldn’t allow you to leave because of some girls and were allowed to stay with the band. You liked acting and with your natural talent and charm you were dragged in many TV shows and movies.
In your dorm the chores are spread equally, though you sometimes do more things as B2ST has more intense schedule then you, and as you are not afraid of silly things as dirt or hard work you enjoy doing stuff for them.
Chapter I
Your P.O.V.
I was walking back home dressed casually, but stylish. I just finished filming parts from the TV drama. A message arrived. It’s from Yoseob.
“HAI-yom! Meh and the guys are wondering how far are you. And when will you be home. ;} Yoseob^^”
I looked around and typed the reply “Walking by the grocery store. Do oppa’s want anything?”
I received an immediate answer from Yoseob and as I entered the store my phone started buzzing with messages from other group members. I sighed; gladly I had a backpack with me.
When I had paid I went outside where I saw Yoseob playing with his phone in his hands, seemed he was just about to call me.
“Why are you here? I could have gone home on my own.”
“Nah, lol, keke wanted to eat my snacks sooner. Give me your bag!”
He is sweet; too bad he didn’t seem interested in relationships with me. Nevertheless I wouldn’t want to ruin the friendship between the group members.
Soon we got home and all the members practically tried to rip the bag apart so they could get the goods.
“Hey, hey guys! I still need to use that later.”
The group’s maknae giggled “Sowwy, Noona!”
Everyone started laughing as it seemed so silly and cute.
“Guys, I’ll make dinner and only then we should eat some snacks.”
“Aww~! No fair!” everyone started to pout.
I went to change my clothes and put my hair into a ponytail. Went down and started cooking.
Yoseob’s P.O.V.
__________-ah came down to cook. She looked good and stylish, but I guess it’s her responsibility as an actress. I wonder where she learnt to cook so well.
“Hey, __________-ah, where did you learn to cool so well?”
Your P.O.V.
Yoseob took a chair flipped it over and sat on it hugging the chair back.
“Hey, __________-ah, where did you learn to cool so well?”
What weird interest from him today.
“Well, I had a big family and I was the oldest, so I helped my mom out a lot, especially when she got sick. Since I joined the Cube I took some cooking lessons too. I finished them with straight A’s, hohohohoho.”
He laughed at my show-off laugh and continued watching me.
I just ignored him and started to hum a melody it was the 4MINUTE – Hot Issue, and soon I heard Yoseob’s lovely voice singing to my melody. Not long after I could hear the entire group’s members coming together and having fun. They played around and had a lot of fun, I laughed so hard that I almost spilt the juice that I was pouring in glasses.
“Oki guys, enough is enough. Let’s have dinner!”
“Sete itadakimasu!” Everyone said and started laughing.
After they had eaten and started to snack I decided to go to bed. Today didn’t seems would bring surprises, but just when those thoughts ran through my head I felt his hands around me.
“Sankju~! Are you going to bed already? ” Yoseob asked without letting me go.
I wonder if he realises how much this is making my heart skip.
Yoseob’s P.O.V.
That was yummy! I feel like hugging her! She’s done so much for us and kept up with her schedule, and it’s been as full as ours with her additional lessons she took.
“Sankju~! Are you going to bed already? ” I hugged her; it seemed so nice and natural, like I was made just for that.
Hm... I hope she doesn’t feel akward, anyhow...
“We should watch the new episodes of your TV drama _________ - ah!”
Chapter II
Since B2ST became a real group and were ‘pros’ everyone and everything had become much lighter and brighter, including their styles and outer appearance. Now it all seemed easier, though the training didn’t stop and in no way got easier. The coaches asked even more from the guys, but now they only had to worry about becoming the number 1.
Your P.O.V.
Because of the hug and how it made me feel I couldn’t sleep for 3 hours. This not-getting-any-sleep thing is really bad. I mustn’t get bags under my eyes; at least this TV drama doesn’t allow it.
I sighed got out of the bed. As I stayed up watching all the TV drama episodes I was in with Yoseob we went to bed only at 3 am.
It was time to shower, get dressed and get to cooking breakfasts.
Making a protein full meal for breakfast was very important. They should have healthy food, because they do dancing practises for hours.
Doo Joon was already up and preparing things for the guys and thinking of the schedule.
I wanted to act fairly nice to every member of the band, not only to Yoseob, so I wouldn’t bother them with my obvious feelings. While they all are so busy with being number 1 I can’t expect Yoseob to be mine and only mine. I just have to hold it in me.
“Good morning, oppa! Hehe. What do you think of a basketball match today? A 1vs1 or if we get lucky enough 2vs2. Hoho.”
He seemed shocked.
Doo Joon P.O.V.
“Good morning, oppa! Hehe. What do you think of a basketball match today? A 1vs1 or if we get lucky enough 2vs2. Hoho.”
I was out of balance; this soothing offer was just what I needed as I hadn’t played basketball for so long. I was really excited and happy, but only the emotion of shock got noticed on my face by ________. This is so rare; usually she’s all around Yoseob or group members on the whole. Hm... She really does go a lot around Yoseob, Oh nevermind, I need to wake up the guys.
“Your timing is quite good. Even seems you’ve memorised our schedule. Haha. I’ll go wake up the guys. This is going to be fun.”
Your P.O.V.
“Your timing is quite good. Even seems you’ve memorised our schedule. Haha. I’ll go wake up the guys. This is going to be fun.” He sounded excited.
“When do you think we should go? I think right after breakfast, so they don’t have excuses to make up.”
“Totally. I’ll go wake them up and you make breakfast! Tehee.”
He left the kitchen and I started to quietly sing a made up song.
“KeKe. I’m making breakfast, tralalalala. Making breakfast for the B2ST that is the BEST”
And that’s when I heard all of them laughing. I pretended to be angry and offended and glared at them.
“It’s ok _________. If it wasn’t such a silly song it would sound awesome. I didn’t know actresses were SUCH good singers too.” He was honestly saying while whipping tears from laughing from his checks.
“HA HA. Very funny. Now if you’ve woken up to make fun of me you should better get dressed! We will be going out to have a basketball game... one or two. Hehe.”
I could hear some sighs, but most of them weren’t against the idea.
I glanced back and Yoseob was smiling his cute smile. I had the urge to hug him quite a lot at the moment. Doo Joon caught me looking at Yoseob with this look. He had suspicious eyes shifting from me to Yoseob.
Doo Joon P.O.V.
This is getting serious. It doesn’t seem Yoseob has noticed, but his easy going attitude and affection showing may hurt _________. Seems she’s holding back. From what I see I’m the only other person knowing this. Well as long as there are no dramas, people don’t get hurt and everyone is friendly I’m going to ignore this. My eyes went back to Yoseob. He was his cheerful self and was thanking _______ for everything with a big, kind smile. From what I saw I guessed _______ wasn’t in a very comfortable situation.
Your P.O.V.
“Now that you’ve eaten, me and Doo Joon will be waiting you downstairs after a few minutes, so don’t drag anything.”
I went to my room and put on the clothes I had already prepared. Put my hair in a pony tail and was ready to go. Doo Joon joined me downstairs after a little while. Yoseob joined us and was excited, jumping around and trying to annoy the leader.
Doo Joon decided to take Yoseob in our team and the others would just pair up. I was going to do my best; I bet they were thinking that as I’m a girl and an actress I’m weaker and less skilled.
When everyone was ready we went out and got to the gym I had borrowed from an old friend of mine. She was a headmaster of a high-rated high school. We changed the clothes and started playing.
It wasn’t as easy as our team had thought. Everyone was trying hard to win, a win on the spot was impossible. We were too strong so we won, I liked sports. I wouldn’t mind going out like this more.
After a complete defeat the other team decided to quit and only Kikwang stayed. I was teamed up with Doo Joon. I wanted to be on the same team as Yoseob, but it wasn’t bad, because after my team won almost 10 rounds Doo Joon and Kikwang quit.
Yoseob stayed. He wanted to beat me, he thought that Kikwang wasn’t as good as Doo Joon; me winning was unfair.
We started playing and did it for some time. And then a moment came when I was getting the ball away from Yoseob, he was close to me, and just when I was falling I dragged him with me. Now he was on top of me, so close we could kiss. We both were surprised by this turn of fate.
My nature of an actress came alive and I confidently stole a kiss from him. I pushed him a bit further, got up, looked at his shocked face and as if angry expression. I could see he was going to get revenge and instincts made me scream out loud and run from him. While laughing we ran after each one, and when we finally where out of strength and breath we stopped. We decided to go home; we took showers and got dressed. Outside the girl dressing room Yoseob was already waiting, with a kind and adorable smile on his face. He took my hand without saying anything.
Yoseob’s P.O.V.
That was shocking and unexpected. I never expected her to kiss me even though in that situation I could only think about it. It seemed the real her wouldn’t be able to do it. She’s just a really good actress. I wished this time, while walking home hand in hand, would never end. My heart was reacting to everything related to her. Could it be I’m...?
Chapter III
Your P.O.V.
We arrived home. Everyone was doing their own things and didn’t notice us holding hands.
I was happy. I had chances to have a happy life, full of love and not just one sided feelings.
But the reality came to life as soon as we walked in the living room. I had to let go of his arm, make dinner, behave like nothing special happened and Yoseob had to go talk about tomorrows schedule with Doo Joon and the other group members. I was half flying in the clouds thinking how lucky I am.
Slowly I’m going to reveal my feeling and maybe our love will bloom like a beautiful sakura bud.
When done with dinner I had lost my appetite and while looking at the clock I understood that I have to be in a photo shoot for a magazine and on the filming set for the new episodes of my drama. I said goodnight and started walking to my room.
Yoseob’s P.O.V.
She’s going to bed early... I hope she’s feeling ok.
I stood up told the guys I’m going to the bathroom and went after her. I grabbed her arm to stop her when she was putting her first step on the staircase. Without thinking I reached for her cheek and kissed it.
“Sweet drea~ms” I whispered
When I looked at her, she had blushed and was tomato red, I blushed too and we starting chuckling so the others wouldn’t hear us.
“Sweet dreams to you too.” _______-ah reached for my lips and lightly touched them with her lips.
She went upstairs and I went back to the kitchen with a huge smile on my face. The only one who noticed the smile and the extreme happiness was Doo Joon.
“Anything good happened in the bathroom?” With a big teasing grin he asked.
I blushed and everyone started to laugh.
Your P.O.V.
He was so sweet, but I’m so exhausted I can’t really thin anymore.
I fell into the bed and my eyes closed. Last thought in my head was Yoseob’s face and how I will regret going to bed with clothes and make up on. With the last strength and willpower I turned the alarm clock an hour earlier so I could have time to deal with the aftermath of today.
Doo Joon P.O.V.
So everyone’s gone to bed and Yoseob’s with me watching __________________-ah’s newest TV shows latest episodes.
“Do you have feeling for her now?
You seem changed, well... towards her at least.”
There was no reply. He was watching __________ very closely flinching each time another dude touched her.
It was funny to watch him, finally a commercial switched on; you could even hear a small growl coming for Yoseob.
I repeated what I had said earlier. Even in the TV light I could see how he blushed. He just nodded with his head and faced towards the TV.
“Do you think the other group members won’t mind? Technically I could have feelings for her as you do, ya know.”
I’ll just bluff a little, just to get him serious about this.
His reaction on what I said was instant. He turned to me and looked into my eyes, with a cute worried expression, _____-ah would like it. He couldn’t see anything in my expression as I was being serious about this talking. He couldn’t guess if what I said was true or not.
“Actually, any of the members could be eyeing her. Though she likes you doesn’t mean others have noticed that.”
As soon as that was said he had a glow around him for an instant as he smiled at the words ‘likes you’. But it was just for a moment, because he knew; the other members really could have feelings for her.
“EHHHH~ Yoseob likes __________________-ah?!” Gikwang’s shout came from the staircase. It seemed even 20 miles away that could have been heard.
“SHH~” me and Yoseob shushed him at the same time.
“But you’ve never showed interest for her. Even today while playing basketball there was nothi-
OH~ wa~it... you two were the last ones to come home...” Gikwang continued without bothering about it.
“Well... I think... she’s what I never knew I always wanted...” Yoseob said.
“HUH!? That makes no sense... I’m going to bed. I don’t even need water to sleep better anymore...” Gikwang went to the room.
“Yeah, me too.! Sweet dreams.” I pat his head and went up.
Yoseob’s P.O.V.
Hm... ‘She’s what I never knew I always wanted’ ... where have I heard that before...
I looked in the shelf with DVD’s.
There it was ‘Fools Rush In’. I remember watching it a long time ago... with everyone... I never thought that phrase had stuck in my head...
I’ll have to watch it with _____ when she’s home. I should be able to tell my feelings and then talk with the other members ... or should I talk with them already in the morning...
Eh~I’ll see when morning comes...
I stopped at the door to our room and whispered towards her room...
I hope you have sweet dreams...
Chapter IV
Yoseob’s P.O.V.
I woke up. It was only 5 am. I had nightmares, but still felt very relaxed and didn’t feel tired at all. I jumped down from the bed and went to wash myself; got dressed. Doojon shouldn’t be waking up for an hour more. I’ll just go look how _____________-ah’s doing. I hope she doesn’t wake up or maybe the opposite...
She usually waked up at 6:30 am; I just walked into her room... It smelled nice.
She was a mess, a cute mess. Yesterday’s clothes and shoes were all over the place. She hadn’t even changed into nightwear, but had made dinner for us instead... She tries too hard when it comes to us... I sat in a corner of her big bed and watched her.
I wonder if she always wears make up to bed... I had sat there for 5 minutes when I heard her say something:
“Yoseo............ love.........yo......”
My jaw dropped open. I was hoping for it but this was easier than I thought...
I leaned closer and kissed her on the forehead.
After 10 more minutes of watching her I almost died from the shock of a loud noise. It was her alarm clock. I looked at my watch it was 5:30 am, seemed a bit early. I was about to turn it off when she got up. She stretched and did some morning workout, stretching and etc, but she didn’t seem to notice me so I sat there.
“Uh, I really went to bed with my clothes on and oh my God with make up too... I have to deal with it now... ” she said
She took new clothes from her wardrobe and went into the bathroom; you could hear a lot of hectic movements coming from there and then the shower turned on. I started laughing; I hadn’t expected her to be so cute while being so hectic.
As soon as the shower was closed the hair dryer was turned on, then I heard her hair being straightened. Then silence came, I guessed she was getting dressed. I took her Ipod and looked at the songs, there were various songs but just for us there was an additional folder even with my duets and solos.
All the sounds stopped. There was complete silence and the doors opened; she came out. I was glad she had taken her clothes before with her; I would have been in big trouble if she came out naked. I hid my face for safety, no sound or movement happened. I lifted my head she was laying in her bed looking at the ceiling. She still didn’t know about my presence.
“I can’t believe I kissed him... I bet he’s thinking I’m weird... ” she mumbled.
“Haha, I like you, ya know. I don’t really think you are weird...” I said.
“Yeah, I wish he would be here and would tell that to me...” she continued.
“That would be really sweet of him, wouldn’t it?” I asked holding back laughter.
In she sat up stiff in her bed and was looking at me in shock... She couldn’t believe me being there. Then she jumped up and made a little squeak and I that made me burst out in laughter.
She was surprised and when she realised what I had heard she flushed red and hid her face in her hands. I stopped laughing, got out of her bad walked to her gave her another kiss on her forehead and walked out of the room. I’m not telling her my feelings yet.
“Tonight... wait for it...”
Your P.O.V.
I just stood there... never in my life had I been more embarrassed... and I had been so slow with realising it all... I even confessed to him without me knowing... He just told me he likes me in a teasing way... What should I be waiting for tonight... it’s all not fair... after I had cherished him so carefully, now it all has ended... our friendship... all gone...? I bet he will ask me to move somewhere else because I may bother him... Ugh... my brain is not gonna handle this, I should stop imagining the worst... wait... the worst would be losing everything, but right now I have a lot of things I won’t lose if it doesn’t work out... I just have to continue on my daily routine... it’s not all over yet...
I took a deep breath and walked out of my room to the kitchen.
I guess the whole fuss had gone by faster then I realised... Somehow even Doo Joon hadn’t even woken up yet. I’ll just make the food and head out for the shoot... My life hasn’t ended because of my love crisis.
Just as I was about to leave from the door I heard everyone waking up, the usual fuss started, I would miss it if I would have to leave it. Then I heard, the only voice I would recognise amongst millions of other voices, it was Yoseob shouting.
“Tonight we’re having a movie night so don’t you dare to miss it. No matter how tired you are I will make you watch or maybe not, ha ha.”
That seemed like the usual him, I’ll just think of what’s gonna happen tonight when the time will come.
I walked out of the room and went to the shooting scene. I had fun cause the girls there have a great sense of humour. No one shouted at me if I fell over wires everyone just laughed with me and helped me get up. The main male role was played by a debuting celebrity, he was nice, but it seemed he looked at me with eyes filled with an emotion I thought as troublesome... If my suspicions were right, he liked me. I sighed, he was right next to me and stared at me, I sighed again and he took it as a signal to talk to me, I sighed again, and the conversation just had to start. Sadly, so that I wouldn’t be thought of as a bitch who thinks everyone likes her I couldn’t say anything until he made a move.
“I enjoy being on this set with you, I think you have an amazing talent and I really respect you. You are perfect, prefect hair, nails, body. Everything about you attracts others. Especially your smile is what I think attracts interest in you.”
I just smiled at him politely and looked for a girl who would save me. I will just somehow tell him with body language I don’t want anything with him.
Final
Your P.O.V.
I got home, happy because the guy had finally made a move and I could tell him everything I thought and didn’t think of him. I was glad that he wasn’t dense and understood me and promised not to bother me. I sighed. I didn’t like hurting people, I hoped I hadn’t hurt him.
Then a smile came to my face. I will be hanging out with the guys.
I got home, everyone was already chilling on the couch, I saw that no one had made popcorn so I went up, changed my clothes and then made the popcorn. I sat next to Doo Joon, me and Yoseob were sitting so we both could easy make eye contact, right now I was avoiding it.
He turned on the movie... it was Fools Rush In. The movie had confused me the first time I watched it, but it was a sweet movie and I felt love between the actors, they were a nice couple... I glanced at Yoseob, he seem into the movie so much as if waiting for something...
I remembered that somewhere in the beginning there was a line the guy said that was really sweet... it went something like: “you are what I never knew...”
The guy in the movie finished my phrase “...I always wanted...”
And I could feel it, the strong stare Yoseob gave me... After that moment he didn’t let his eyes off me. The guys started to feel uncomfortable and when the movie was soon to end one by one each of them made excuses on how to leave...
I couldn’t believe this is happening... I had to face the things that are going to happen after all of them will have gone to bed... I avoided meeting Yoseob’s gaze till the movie ended and then I gave a sigh of satisfaction as the movie had a happy ending. I stood up and so did Yoseob.
He came to me and took my hand, I stared at him in surprise.
“I have really strong feelings for you, and as cheesy as it sounds you are what I never knew I always wanted. I hope we will always be together...” he blushed and I just stood there with my mouth open. It was like a dream I jumped on him from happiness and kissed him all over. I really loved him, all of him, his cute side, his funny side, his teasing side and childish side. I wanted a life with him for as long as it could continue.
cr: http://www.asianfanfics.com/story/view/18641/you-are-what-i-never-knew-i-always-wanted-b2st-korean-life-lovestory-romance-yoseob-you
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